Introducing the beginning of the chaos that is me

I have never been a woman of many words, so you will find that I am generally pretty straight and to the point. Unless I am in a brain fog moment and then I tend to go on and on about nothing. I'm a 41-year-old ordinary woman in crisis,
I don't know many places where they dig into the down and dirty right off the top but that is the only way I know how to really communicate, and I intend to showcase the real me. Flawed, imperfect, and all that comes along with it. As you all know, life is hard, and as much as everyone else I feel like I was given the short end of the stick. So I guess we'll start at the beginning, with a little speed along.
I was born to a 17-year-old mom and a 38-year-old dad who were forced to marry because of the age difference. Don't get me wrong, I feel as if they loved each other at some point. Much as I loved my dad, and still do, there are things that people do that are impossible to forgive. He tended to have a bit of an abusive hand on the women he was with. I believe he changed his ways at some point in his life, possibly after removing alcohol from his life. By then, my mother, who mustered up the courage to leave him, had moved on to the next man who was abusive and ended up taking her life. I was 9 years old.
As I move forward in my story, the more you are going to think that this amount of things can't have gone wrong in one person's life. This brings me to the reason for starting this blog. I was watching Grey's Anatomy and this one line came up, "Others would have been broken by just a fraction of what she's been through." I felt that so deep in my soul. As you see, the first thing that I've "been" through, is definitely one of the most life-changing, and extremely hard things, so much so that it carries throughout everything that I do.
So, my introduction to you is a serious topic. I intend to move forward with my story, but also, I hope to discuss the implications that these things have on a person's life. I also want to touch base on other things, like a career change in your 40s, how to gain employable skills, family life, and many more. Thanks for reading, and I hope you come back for more. I'd really love for this to become something for me to have an outlet and gain/give support.